Yucky

Well it's been a while since i've blogged. Mainly, because i've been struggling like MAJOR. So bad. It's like ridiculous.  Long story short (won't go into details) but i'm trying to get off the one medication I take, and it's hard seeing as i've taken it for five years. 

I feel tired all the time, I never wanna get up in the morning at the butt crack of dawn to work out, but I always feel better afterwards. It's just getting there that's the problem.  Nina has been so motivating and stood by my side when I wanted to give up, and I can honestly say I would've given up a long time ago if it weren't for her. I don't wanna get all sappy on here but dang that girl does a lot for me and i'm grateful for it.  

She had to leave early or something a week or so ago, I don't remember but she wanted some encouraging pictures so I was showing her I was still working hard. Ha! 

We feed off of each other so much its ridiculous. We have both been super moody this week because our workouts have sucked. Nina's practically having a meltdown because she's not burning as much as she used to, but um after losing 50 pounds, she's not gonna! This past week I'VE had the same problem too.. WHAT! I haven't lost weight, and i've only lost a couple inches since the new year... 

So we have just been struggling together but pushing through.  This morning I really really didn't want to get up and was going to think of any excuse in the book not to go, but I thought that I really need to for some reason, we pushed hard and I finally burned over my 500 and she broke 1,000. So we were in better moods after not being able to all week! 

She was really in the zone the other day and I was going to start saying something and I look over and she's busting it out and has both headphones in, I was laughing but she was so into it she didn't even see me taking pictures hah! 

I got a lucky opportunity to run in the Ogden half marathon on May 18th. SO soon. I'm freaking out a little whenever I think about it. I still haven't ran more than 8 miles in my life. And I haven't had sufficient time to train for this. And i've really doubted myself, but after reading Brandi's blog post about her half she ran this last week after not training and doing it last minute, I feel a lot better. I CAN do this. Yeah it's gonna be hard, yeah i'll want to stop, yeah i'll cry when I finish, but dang it i'll do it whether I have to crawl across the finish line.  I'm really excited for this opportunity to test myself, and then to run the Huntsville half in September and try to beat my time.  

Wish me luck! 

First Goal of 50 pounds lost: Complete.

Hey all! I hope that you can share in my excitement for my first 50 lbs lost. It was hard. It sucked. I loved every minute though. I really am addicted to living a healthy lifestyle. I will post before and after pictures later. So y'all can see the difference. I can finally notice it myself. It has been slow catching up mentally to the weight loss. I think that has been the hardest thing for me. Excercising and eating right has been easy compared to the mental side of it all.

That amazing person to the left has played a HUGE part in my weight loss. Kylie is so good at motivating me. She is super supportive and also knows when to be tough on me. I can't stress enough how important it is to have support. It feels good too. When someone is ready to lose weight they have to decide for themselves. I know that not everyone can have an awesome gym partner and accountability buddy. I just know for me its exactly what I needed to help me when I made the choice to live better. This picture was taken today, we went trail running up in North Ogden. It was a ton of fun. I was slow like always and sucking wind!

This hill doesn't look as steep as it was. My heart rate stayed at a constant 165-170. Which is fairly close to my max heart rate. It does not feel to lovely when its that high, but for some reason today I was enjoying having to work really hard to try and keep up with Kylie. I would have to say that I have improved a lot and don't hold her back as much as I used to.

It is super important to have fun during your workouts. Our workouts are usually always full of smiles and laughter. Don't think for a second that we don't work our butts off though. We are both competitive and push each other to work hard.

Kylie is super tired after doing burpees at the gym. She has a nice little sweat puddle going.

I got a new job and I am working full time now. So in order for us to have a life, we get up around 5 and get to the gym around 5:45. We do this 4 days a week now, and usually run or something on Saturday. I really like going to the gym that early. I am a morning person anyway so it wasn't that much of an adjustment for me. Kylie on the other hand hasn't handled it to bad. I thought she would have a rougher time (Shes soooo NOT a morning person.) It sure has helped to have more time in the evenings with our families. It's a nicer balance. Working out takes a lot of my time. I have made it a priority in my life. Not everyone agrees with that, and that's OK. I need to do this to get healthy. The sacrifices I make now will even out and be worth it as I become more fit.

I am so glad to be making progress. I am also glad that I can share it in this blog. Hopefully I will inspire someone to live a healthier life. There are no good excuses as to why you cant get in shape. I was just plain lazy and comfortable being miserable physically. I didn't think I could run at 350lbs. Guess what? Ya I ran anyway, more like a slow jog, but I am improving each week. And I can do a 10k and not want to roll up and die. I enjoy the soreness, it means that its working!!!! And that's the best feeling. Kylie is making progress as well. I can totally see it and tell. Shes such and inspiration and I love her!! Shes the bestest friend Ever!!!!!

I am so grateful for Heavenly Father and Jesus. There was a need in my life and they filled it. Even when I had forgotten them, and didn't want anything to do with them. No one is forgotten and left alone. Just remember even when you think your alone. You still have a Father in Heaven who loves you.