Yucky

Well it's been a while since i've blogged. Mainly, because i've been struggling like MAJOR. So bad. It's like ridiculous.  Long story short (won't go into details) but i'm trying to get off the one medication I take, and it's hard seeing as i've taken it for five years. 

I feel tired all the time, I never wanna get up in the morning at the butt crack of dawn to work out, but I always feel better afterwards. It's just getting there that's the problem.  Nina has been so motivating and stood by my side when I wanted to give up, and I can honestly say I would've given up a long time ago if it weren't for her. I don't wanna get all sappy on here but dang that girl does a lot for me and i'm grateful for it.  

She had to leave early or something a week or so ago, I don't remember but she wanted some encouraging pictures so I was showing her I was still working hard. Ha! 

We feed off of each other so much its ridiculous. We have both been super moody this week because our workouts have sucked. Nina's practically having a meltdown because she's not burning as much as she used to, but um after losing 50 pounds, she's not gonna! This past week I'VE had the same problem too.. WHAT! I haven't lost weight, and i've only lost a couple inches since the new year... 

So we have just been struggling together but pushing through.  This morning I really really didn't want to get up and was going to think of any excuse in the book not to go, but I thought that I really need to for some reason, we pushed hard and I finally burned over my 500 and she broke 1,000. So we were in better moods after not being able to all week! 

She was really in the zone the other day and I was going to start saying something and I look over and she's busting it out and has both headphones in, I was laughing but she was so into it she didn't even see me taking pictures hah! 

I got a lucky opportunity to run in the Ogden half marathon on May 18th. SO soon. I'm freaking out a little whenever I think about it. I still haven't ran more than 8 miles in my life. And I haven't had sufficient time to train for this. And i've really doubted myself, but after reading Brandi's blog post about her half she ran this last week after not training and doing it last minute, I feel a lot better. I CAN do this. Yeah it's gonna be hard, yeah i'll want to stop, yeah i'll cry when I finish, but dang it i'll do it whether I have to crawl across the finish line.  I'm really excited for this opportunity to test myself, and then to run the Huntsville half in September and try to beat my time.  

Wish me luck!