My mind is my worst enemy

Hey all, things are going rather well. I am still losing, and mostly have a hold on my eating. Occasionally I want to over eat, whether its from emotional stress or something just looks so dang good. Believe it or not there are people who don't want you to lose weight or get healthy. Realistically you should ignore those people, but its easier said then done. It helps that I have a few people that are awesome at giving me encouragement and support.

Yesterday, before my English class I decided to go for a run outside. How it really happened is, I was telling Kylie how nice it looked and that I wanted to run outside. So she said go do it. So I did. I went on the Kayscreek trail (The old Union Pacific line) busted out C25k and Map my run and off I went. As I got thinking about it this is the first time I believe that I have every just went running outside. Soccer and other sports don't count. It was colder than I thought, I warmed up quickly though. It was harder physically to run outside, on the mental side it was soooo much easier. I enjoyed my time running. I even had time to take a pic to send to Kylie to tell her to leave the girl scout cookies alone.

For anyone who is interested in my progress you can view the weight side of it on this blog. As far as my mile time, I started out at 21:00 for a mile. This is what I am at now.

Ignore that McDonald's add, and don't eat there its nasty.

So I am at around 17:00 minutes and I am pretty happy with that. The 10k is coming up in July and I hope to finish in at least an hour and a half.

A little something I read every morning that helps to keep me going. I need tons of reminders all day long.

Pushing on

Well Nina has been wanting me to blog for a while. I'm not gonna lie I've been struggling.  By the time I get off work after my 9 hour shift every day I am beat tired and I want to just go home and relax.  Some days i'm excited to go to the gym and have been looking forward to it, other times I am dreading it and will do anything to get out of it, but Nina has kept me going. I'm so grateful for that, I can say for sure I would have quit a long time ago if it wasn't for her.  

My weight has been so weird since we've started. I've fluctuated but haven't lost more than 5 pounds total since the first of the year. It gets really discouraging because Nina loses so much, but I know i'm gaining muscle and she has more fat to lose.. not in a mean way. Its true and we both know it, so I can say that :) Haha! I gained last week then I lost .2 this week putting me at 199.7... not that great. BUT I am excited to measure myself on the first of March. I'm doing it monthly but am thinking we're going to lose weight totally different. I'm going to lose inches first but not weight, and Nina's going to lose weight first then inches. We will see...

When I was clothes shopping for Christmas I found these jeans, I got the biggest size they had in the store (Vigoss Brand Size 32) and I couldn't get them zipped up or buttoned.  I bought them anyways as motivation, I tried them on the other day and they were still tight but I could get them buttoned and zipped! Proud :) 

I bought another size down from what I am right now and they are hanging on my bedroom door so I see them every day! 

More random laughter going on at the gym :) 

We ordered some more amino. It's the best stuff ever invented. For real people. It's got no sugar, like 2 carbs, and I think 10 calories for 2 scoops. I've now tried every flavor but orange, I think my favorite is the fruit punch, then grape, then watermelon, I've yet to try the blue raspberry.. Nina's slacking on giving me some to try ;) hahaha! 

Now for some random goodness :) 

I Procrastinate

I have been meaning to put up a post for a week now, but I am an extreme procrastinator . So I thought I would do it this morning before I get distracted. Things have been going well. Besides a tad bit of personal/family stress. When I am working out I HAVE to listen to music. It's a necessity when I am on the treadmill. Other workouts I can do without. For some reason to stay motivated on the treadmill I need music. I listen to all types of music in general. My gym mix is a tad different though. I need aggressive music. Mostly rap and alternative. It helps me to kick butt having upbeat music with a good cadence while I am trying to run.

Speaking of running. I did not think that I would be able to run until I was around 300lbs, but thanks to Kylie I am running already. We are doing the C25K (Couch to 5k)I am up to running 3 minutes at a time, and yes I feel like I am going to die. Afterwords I feel great though. I hope to be ready to go for our 10k in July. My main goal is to just finish within the time allotted.

Just in case any of you are wondering what I eat I will tell you a tad bit. I don't have much variety I find something I like and stick with it basically. That is what an average day looks like for me when I go to the gym. Don't be freaking out about how many calories I burn at the gym. I weigh A LOT so I burn more. The more I lose the less I will burn in the same amount of time at the gym. Also I don't always have that many calories left at the end of the day, but its pretty close. I haven't really had any sweet cravings in awhile. I do however still want to eat emotionally. So that is something that I still struggle with. That is where having someone to be accountable to comes in. I think that has helped me the most with all my struggles. Knowing that I have someone to go to that will help me get past wanting to over eat. My breakfasts are usually the same I have eggs, toast, and some form of meat, either ham, chicken, or turkey. Lunch lately has been pita pit or subway, or I have left overs. Just depends. Dinner is usually a meat and veggie. I got these turkey burgers from Smiths ya they are amazing. I eat a lot of those too.

I had a rest day on Friday, I struggled all day with wanting to go to the gym. It was pretty much driving me crazy and Jared was like "go to the gym already sheesh" But I didn't I had a rest day. Being that it had been two weeks since I have had a rest day. So then Saturday comes along and I feel like crap, I DO NOT want to go to the gym and I was ornery (it happens I am a girl.) I ended up going and doing c25k for some reason I was so tired!!! I could barely make it through the cycle. As always I felt way better afterwards though. Sundays are supposed to be rest days, but I feel like I need to go, it helps my mood too.

I always have a ton of fun when I am at the gym with Kylie. We do a TON of laughing.

That is pretty much us all the time. Cracking up about one thing or another. It makes gym time awesome! Plus we work hard too.

Kylie has all the pictures of me on her phone so she will have to post those.

FREAKING AMAZING massage beds for after the workout! Woot.

Preston came to the gym with us!! Thanks Preston! Awww look they match!!! Cute!!!

Wavering Body Strong Mind

Hi y'all. So its way past my bedtime (9:30) I can't sleep and wanted to blog to pass some more of the time. I am thinking that my body isn't up to the task of keeping up with my mind. This is a recent development. For some reason this time I am so motivated. I just want other people to be motivated like me. I am just hoping that when my mind wavers someone (Kylie HA!) will be there to push me on. I am so grateful for her in my life. Sounds corny but its so true. I don't think I would have started this journey again without her. I just hope that I can be as valuable to her as she is to me.

So more about my body wavering. I started doing C25k (Couch to 5k) I absolutely LOVE it. I had done it before years ago and I hated it. Why the difference now? Probably has something to do with my will to get healthy. So I have been on the treadmill for a week now. I can run farther, faster and longer in just that week. For me being such a big girl I am surprised. I didn't think I would be able to run until I was below 300 but I can run now, even if its just for a short time. My legs always scream for me to stop and my mind is like ya right you wuss. So I don't stop and I do the workout. When Kylie is at the gym with me I run a little faster than when I am by myself. So the last few nights I have been having trouble getting to sleep. Not to mention since Kylie and I text all the time I stay up later as well. So now on to the problem. I feel so great after my workouts, I love the sore feeling that I get in my muscles that lets me know I am working them. Losing 5 lbs last week also helped boost my spirits. I feel fine when I get home, even later in the evening. For some reason as soon as I lay down I am in excruciating pain. Now being overweight I am used to being in pain all the time. It just goes along with carrying around another human with me all the time. But this, this pain is different. The only thing I would know to compare it to is Restless Leg Syndrome. My grandma had that, we used to have to rub her legs for hours and night cos they hurt so bad. I cant take ibuprofen or I would be fine and go right to sleep. Instead I just sit up and wait for them to stop hurting then I fall asleep. Instead of the pain demotivating me, it actually is making me more motivated. I want to me more healthy, and not have to worry about my legs hurting. So I just work harder at the gym. Tonight when I lay down it will be interesting to see if they still hurt as bad as previous nights.

I am not trying to whine. I am just wanting to let y'all know that I wont let that stop me. I am on a path to a better life. And want to share it with you :)

Me at the Gym on Friday

I totally got Kylie to come with me.

I am so glad that she came. We had fun and where laughing while doing our leg exercises. Also did squats, which I didn't think I could do because of my knee. They where fine.

In need of some motivation.

Well I've been slacking the last couple of days.  My kitty died a couple of days ago, I'm falling behind in my math class [which is the ONLY thing standing between me and my associates], i'm transitioning into my brand new job, and having troubles with my old one.. we won't go into that.. needless to say.. i'm STRESSED. When I get stressed i'm like almost every other girl... I eat. I eat a lot and I eat bad food.  I'm so grateful I have Nina, but i've still had zero motivation other than her. I gained three pounds this week, but I totally knew that was coming, I have hardly worked out. What can I say, i'm human!

We went to the gym last night and I felt a little better. I always work out harder when i'm with Nina. Preston and I went to the gym two nights ago and I just didn't push myself. I didn't even make it to 500 calories burned. He's sure studly though, he lifts like crazy and I LOVE it :) mmm.

Ahem. Anyways. I have still been having a hard time getting back into the groove of eating healthy and working out but I just wasn't feeling it. I love to read mama's blog as well as Megan's for some motivation and to read their amazing weight loss stories and how they keep it up and look so good now. I was scanning through mamas when I found the perfect post for me right now. She's right. I'm not stopping, I don't care if I lose, gain, or have a month long plateau like her, I won't give up. I'm not happy with my weight, and the only way i'm going to change it is by getting off my large bottom and donig something.  I'm lucky for the support system I have and I am going to keep it up. I can do this.

We totally did hip abductors and adductors and after doing them a couple days ago they hurt so good!

I couldn't stop laughing.

Now for some more motivation :)

A little MeMe Motivation!!!

Like Jillian says "Will is Skill"

PITA PIT!

Well all is well here at the fat club! I (Kylie) haven't been able to work out with anyone but Nina due to an evening class I have until the end of February.  They have all been slacking a little but i'll okay it for now.. I hope to keep them motivated and know they will soon get to the point Nina and I have hit!

We are ADDICTED to working out! I love it. I truly believe after working out religiously 4-6 days a week for 2 weeks a habit forms. She text me this morning asking if I was getting up earlier because she was itching to go to the gym!  Oh geez Nina.. interrupting my beauty sleep! I look forward to our work out every day.

Another thing we're addicted to and keeping in business is Pita Pit! Have you had it?!?! It's like Subway on steroids! SO GOOD! Ok.. anyway.. We get it like 3 times a week! Super healthy.. I just want to buy their pitas..

Time for some picture updates!

I feel like I make really funny faces when I lift a lot.. anyone else?

I was watching them on the treadmill making sure they were working hard:)

The debate is on.. people are saying mom looks super pale and like shes gonna pass out..

I think she's a hottie and her face is flushed from working out!

ahhh pullups.